Forgive My Absence

As usual, life has been a whirlwind. Shifting me from one thing to another, without ever really finishing anything. That's one of my major downfalls. Distractions. My focus is alway switching on and off, to and from. Everyone feels the effects of it. But, mostly I do.

There's 24 hours in a day. I could use 30 or more. It take an hour and 45 in the morning to get the kids and my self out the door. I work eight and half and drive forty-five minutes each way. Helping with homework uses the better part of an hour. I usually spent 30 minutes at the dinner table with the family but use up an hour or more to prepare and clean up from the meal. I've learned that 30 minutes of email checking and Facebook status checking can be relaxing. I average six to six and a half hours of sleep so somewhere in the remaining 3 hours I have to be a good wife, mother, daughter and friend. There are days that I simply collapse, mind and body. I stare stupidly at the TV and watch reruns of Law & Order or other such things. Doing nothing is pleasure I rarely have time to enjoy.

Since the last time I checked in, I was in a car accident in August. Nothing major. Just your typical rear-ended, car-totaled, battle-with-the-insurance-company kind of accident. I work in the insurance business and I am by no means an expert, but I am a consumer. And I can tell you that you definately feel robbed when your functioning car is destroyed and it's honestly not your fault! It puts you in a foul mood when the insurance company offers you a third of the car's value! Oh, well. Thank God for good people. I was able to get a vehicle that works for my family and budget with the help of a local car lot.

There was a tragedy is our family in September. The story is too long, too painful, and too raw to discuss at this point. The words will not form at my head to let my typing fingers tell the story.

I am starting a course for a new branch of insurance licensing. It is very challenging. But, as I've stated earlier, focus has not been my strong suit lately. The offical class (a 3-day tornado tour) begins in two weeks and I haven't finished the study manual yet. No good, not good at all. I wish there was a "focus-focus, hocus-pocus" spell that cast all my distractions aside for a while.

There is a lot on my plate right now. But who doesn't carry a full schedule everyday? Wish me luck, send me love and I'll be babbling again soon.